I'm Not That Guy

Last post on this topic, I promise! Retired after this ...

So Half's fb account is back up! Yeah!!
And I get an inbox message ... Please delete the fb post you did. It violates my trust, blahblahblah. I didn't think it was a bad or offensive post. As a matter of fact here it is:
Tommybear deactivated his account :(
I want to say sorry to his fam, going to miss his sharing of his art on fb.

My friend/sis, says to just delete it (you do have to pick and choose your battles) so I will. Here was his update after he messaged me:

"So love, seems we couldn’t connect again and im hurt down to my core
How is it I see you in my dreams but you never seem sure
Genuine emotion I want to show you who I could be
Here I am lamenting on what was , and has been, and what I shall never seem to see
Had dreams of making life dreams of hugging my wife
... Those dreams dead I guess my only choice? Go on with life
Many questions from my fam and those who I consider friend
I can’t explain how I began to move toward this new end
It takes time to hit dead stop when love was dead drop
But mage is a power that seems to rise to the top
This latest ep has me gun shy no design to be the one
My light died inside so im shooting at the sun
How can I say love is what I want if I cant hold on to when its here
Too stubborn to change my ways? Should I give in to my true fear?
Is it enough to know someone cared enough for that short time
Or should I push past what couldn’t work and exist on that red line
The spot between emotion and the motion of moving along
I finally get it how these artists seem to put their heart into a song
She said my art shows one side and my ways show another
I guess I wasn’t the right brother to stay forever as her lover
How do I reconcile with real and say im easy with this now
The sappy side of my eaten away, I want to acknowledge alone as my new vow
But damn if I do that then I accept that she is gone
Oh well, heart wave goodbye to love and kick push life along
……
~mage, amethyst dragon in a haze of smoke created by life’s living hell"

I have to admit it pulls at the heartstrings a bit ...